boundless days

i feel like i'm writing a book on here but only revealing one page per chapter. i'll try to be better on these lazy summer days ;)

school is out for the summer and i could not even begin to describe the amount of changes that have surpassed in just the last couple of months. i feel like all college is is this rapidly churning cycle you get thrown into where you start changing and evolving so fast you kind of lose sight of who you thought you were for a bit. and as strangely enough as this sounds, there's also that omnipresent, acute sense of comfort that when you do, in fact, survive the whirpool that is college, you come out of it more reassured than you ever have been up to that point. and that, i'd say, is a change i'm willing to take the tumble for.

alongside changes a lot has stayed the same. i'm still sticking to my major, even though i have been doing a lot of different things on the side. and all that is teaching me that maybe it is possible to live a life with several plates full; to do what you love no matter how many things fall under that one category, to not have to carve your name under a certain skill or profession for all eternity in order to be a functional and sane human being. which is a good thing.

summer for me is a time without time. a season all about doing what you want to do, when you want to do it. and as unrealistic as that place might sound to you grownup, professional adults out there (and cynics alike), it is real. and even if i am dillusional, off in my own alternate reality that is really a complex diversion to the hectic and demanding life that i should be living, let that be. i can accept that.

for now, i'm living free. and i'm going to enjoy every non-second of it.

erica