quick breather

i've come to realize the multitude of benefits that come with letting go and giving all of your energy to what's right in front of you instead of remaining bitter and dwelling on the past. i have (had?) a bigger problem with resentment than i thought and especially with all of these great things happening to me lately, i've decided that that's not the kind of person i want to be.

i was never the girl people could say was happy all of the time or always had a smile. i was the girl with the comebacks, the snyde remarks, the walls. the girl everyone loved and at the same time loved to hate, and i was lovin' the "love" - because that's all i had known at that point.

i'm not really sure where i'm going with this, but for update's sake - life is good. it's been one heck of a roller coaster lately, but despite the drops and turns, at least i'm on for the ride.

and then all is revealed

you used to be beautiful, but now you're a fake.

my eyes have been more opened in the past few months than they've ever been.

and i can genuinely say - genuinely - that i am completely, incandescently happy. is it silly to say that i'm a better person? i feel softer. i want to be better.

i like this.

when i take a moment and think about the blessings i have in my life right now i feel as if i could burst!

i cut my hair. because things are changing!

is this what love really feels like?

until next time,

erica.

new photos up on my flickr

say whatt??

this time i'm not posting to spill my feelings out onto cyberspacial paper, my friends. oh no. this time i'm posting for victory.

of what you might ask?

this bad boy: (hell yes thats a hare with a fine bum!)


and a huge certificate to loveheylola's shop!

i know, right???

so, to get more entries in this contest-of-a-lifetime, i had to mention both her blog (which you all better be subscribed too already, btw) and her shop. sheesh, she thinks she's pullin a tooth, here! anything for this crazy gal!

crossing my fingers!

oh, dang. almost forgot the requested sweet and shiny poem!!

lola, hey lola, your words make me squeal
your blog is so funny, the content unreal.
rabbits with butts and bacon galore
your pics have me in tears, my sides aching sore.
if i win your contest i'll get up and dance,
and not gonna lie,
probably pee in my pants.

season's turning

this year has been a huge year of self-analyzing, i'm not sure why. maybe some minute attempt at self-discovery? the more i find out about myself, the more assured and confident i become with my actions. not because i feel like i have excuses now, but because i know that this is who i'm intended to be.

lots of changes! it's all new for me. getting excited :) maybe i'm a bit more ready to disassemble the bricks than i thought.

hope everyone is having a fabulous season!

home again

they say home is where the heart is - but what if mine's split between two?

i'm trying to look happy and grateful to be back at the family's house.

i'm trying to conceal the fact that i want to be somewhere else 90% of the time.

and i'm trying not to make this into another boo-hoo entry.

but it all seems to be going there, doesn't it ?

maybe it's the Bon Iver.

7 weeks away from a different life. one full of independence and growth. one full of choices.

but when i look back at all the strength i've gained from the wonderful people i surround myself with, i know i can trudge through it.

counting down...

using time wastefully

i'm sort of proud of myself for putting time aside to work on small projects amongst the madness that has been school/work lately.

i feel like i've been in this artistic rut for years on end and have finally begun to monopolize the resources available to me as an art student.

here are a few small things i've completed - meet The Forest Gents (yet to be individually named):





hope all is well on your end :)

moving on along

i don't know what it is lately but i'm messing with every canvas i can find! working with a graphic designer friend on making a website to display my artwork/photography/whatever else.

here are some smaller works i finished tonight:




we'll see what this weekend brings!